A song for the new season.

Towards the end of dec, excitement was already bubbling in me.
I just feel that 2006 is gonna be exciting, a new season of change.

I'm looking forward to some changes in my career and even personal development. As for ministry, I have interest to explore into a new area, but shall see how God leads.

With changes, there will bound to have challenges. I'm preparing to be out of my comfort zone, learn from scratch and to be open. Determined to leave the valley of 2005 behind, I endeavour to find passion in my life and be who I can be.
I want to find back the passion for God, the fire and hunger that I had in my first year of coming to know the Lord.

You raise me up ~ Josh Groban
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When I am down and oh my soul so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me

You raise me up so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up to walk on stormy seas
I am strong when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up to more than I can be
(x 4)

You raise me up to more than I can be

I don't deserve it.

Sheep: Lord pls let me win the Nikon DSLR, amen! Thank u Jesus ;D
Mike: Trust me..God won't hear you on this one.
Sheep: God hears all my prayers.
Mike: nah...just played chess with him...
Sheep: God knows all my desires. If its good for me, I'll get it. Sooner or later... Wait and see :)
Mike: Tell now...what have u done to deserve this?
Sheep: Nothing. I don't deserve it. But God loves me so much, he justs gives me.
Mike: haahaa
Sheep: yup. I don't deserve anything good that God gives me. But if He sees that it is good for me. He will give me.
Sheep: Just like how he gave His son Jesus to me, and to YOU.


yes God. I don't deserve it. Never did deserve anything that you have blessed me with. Never so guai (sinless) before that i deserve Jesus. Never was, never did - anything worthy enough to earn your love, to earn a place in heaven, nor to have your blessings and attention when i pray.

But God, its amazing how you just love me, despite how i am. You never did need me to earn your love. Never needed me to be sinless or pure, before i can come to you. Never needed me to earn the right to call on your name in prayers, even when I selfishly listed out my needs and wants, like a spoiled child demanding for new toys; as if i have banked in my deposit and have every right to withdraw from the teller. noo..

God loves me, just because He loves me. Simple as that. Unconditional as that.
Power of Love. just like how some people do silly things for love, despite efforts being unreciprocated. To God, its loving me despite my sins; my shame; my worst; my unworthiness. To God, its sacrificial love for me - dying on the Cross for me - knowing that
i can never reach heaven on my own.

Jesus - God - sinless.
helped me pay for the price of sin - death - hell.
by taking on my sins - death on the cross - penalty for sins paid and settled.
Christ's resurrection after 3 days - victory over death - my living God.

Who am I to warrant God's love? What have I done to deserve these?
Nothing. simply God's grace.

Thank you Jesus.

My 3 packets tissue review

Passion of Christ

Wow, a really powerful movie on what Christ suffered for us.
It really hurts, watching him being humiliated, blashed, whacked, whipped, flesh ripped, nailed....
I can only imagine the type of pain he went through.
Its unbearable, just watching it on screen for 1+ hour.
Can you imagine Christ going through all that without a chance to gasp ?
They started abusing him the moment they captured him at night.
I believe that in real life, his suffering was worse than the film can depict.

Yet throughout the whole ordeal, he was so brave.
Such passion and sturborn love for us.
From the film, and imagination, one can fathom that after all the physical torture He received, He still forced himself to go on, no running away, no fear, no pleading for leniency.

The body was broken, seriously unable to go on, yet HIS sturborn love, faith, and desire to bring salvation by delivering himself is so incredibly strong and heart wrenching.
No other man will be able to do it the way he did. His faith, love, motivation, spirit....
I, for one, know that I can't.

The cross he was crucified on was so big and heavy. Even from there you can feel his determination.
It requires 2 - 3 strong, healthy soldiers to carry it, but he hauled it himself till he can no longer....
no need to mention the condition he was in.
Lord....

Its seriously unbearable in such a heart wrenching way.
I had to keep myself from crying out loud.
though i didn't managed to do that a couple of times ...

3 packets of tissue.
2 for myself and 1 for the stranger guy sitting next to me with tears streaming down his face.

Rating of film: 9.5 out of 10.

Jesus Christ: More than beyond 1,000,000%